If imperfections were as important when seeking a fellow individuals that one is fond of. May it be through a friendship, and or relation involving a significant other. A majority of individuals will not accept one’s imperfect behaviors. But in all honesty the unimportant facts, the less we feel in ourselves is just what one may loath about in another. When one loses sight of all they have at their hands, the mind goes through these struggling stages. Struggling stages in a sense of unworthiness, the unacceptance feeling within oneself is hugely overthought on a daily basis. The feeling of being too broken for anyone to be associated with. While it’s one’s responsibility for their own happiness, sometimes one seeks the happiness in others. This creating their happiness within. When one has a kind face and soft eyes, anyone would be damned not to accept one because of their flaws.
Now, While one’s overly thinking the what ifs and buts that’s one less thing that’s lost. Theres a great big difference between learning through your mistakes and punishing oneself for them. Happiness is a grown word that is shown in many different instances. But while having that true happiness, having a little bit of faith goes bit longer in ways. It’s hard for one to put themselves in the same predicament as others. But by taking the time to get to know someone for the internal beauty as well as their external. You begin to already establish their flaws and their imperfections. When one is adored for all the right reasons those things are a non-existing. What becomes extremely known is how one becomes when they acknowledge what’s infront of them. Not only realizing but taking full acknowledgement that being flawed just makes one, utterly unique.
To go back to the last paragraph we spoke upon the acceptance for each other. This becomes broader, broader because their minds have been stretched in a sense. They become accustomed to those things one may hate about themselves. Thinking that it’s better if you both went along different paths. It’s a wonderance for one to grasp what are the core like reasons why. Maybe because one says they are emotionally, physically, or mentally disconnected from this life. Or may it be because of past instances things went way to sour too quick. This completely turning oneself off to newer relations. From a personal standpoint, those things are very true. The feelings one gets in their mind, in their body and in their soul is to stray away further from happiness. Being that as it may this is just easier, it isn’t. No matter if it’s this one person, one is pushing away. Or consciously preventing conversations to be had creating a wall like block around them. Ignoring their every communicated conversations to have or to be had. It becomes a pattern like throughout their entire existence. It’s starts off as this certain individual than eventually before they even realize it, they are alone. While it’s so much easier being alone, but sooner than later. One gets sick of their own personal presence.
Before any initial realization at first, eventually one starts to ponder upon the what ifs and the could ofs. A large feeling of sadness surrounds the mind, masking their emotions. Masking ones emotions only last for a little time, and eventually one starts to completely crawl out of ones skin. Feelings of emotions in which one has never felt. The doubt one felt prior starts to eat them alive, because they start thinking of all the beautiful distinct memories made. Right before one decided to flee the scene. Even for the other individual, maybe with past experiences have made them feel broken, unrepairable at one point or another. So for any new parties they have a awfully hard time pushing their way through. This leaving the solo individual alone because by this time one has already pushed them far enough away, the other party left without return. Given the fact that one has made it clear their wants weren’t the same. It’s not that their wants weren’t the same it was the opportunity after opportunity. One has given another to decide to keep them around, who’s to say that one would have been able to have the capacity and the capability. To show one a new way, now when we talk about new. It becomes so scary to one, but how is one going to know the outcomes if one does not try.
With one not having the capability to see the good, and the strength one has. Sometimes its a tremendous issue with others seeing it, so at this point it’s easier to leave without a goodbye. Leaving the other party lost. Lost in a sense because one has already had time invested. So they feel it’s a flaw within themselves. When one cares about another, they don’t focus on the things one lacks, all they care about is who they are as a person. Growing a sense of compassion for the other, noticing how hardworking one is and how happy one makes another. The flaws and imperfections become unknown to the other party, making the other individual soon to learn to accept the unexpected. With time ofcourse, everything takes time. No one said it was done overnight, but with the warnings of one to have the capacity to overcome the flawed imperfections. Having these flaws and or struggles is what forms us to be well rounded human beings. Lessons to be learned, and chances that are meant to be taken. How will one know if one is not for one if there’s no time taken to find out. Chances are hard to take but honestly don’t be afraid to take chances because one can never be to certain on what their missing.
Regret is the most known feeling that eats one up from the inside as well as the outside. Masking ones emotions for so long and pushing the connected few away is cutting oneself short. With stubborn behaviors, as well as a mind. One is not thinking of that at the time, but its wise to keep in mind. If one has no connection with another then it’s easier to stray away. But what if one has a strong connection filled with endless smiles. What then? Does one still push another away? The answer is yes. Sometimes when one can’t fully give themselves 100% of themselves it’s hard to give it to another. So it because extremely easier for one to put the other party on do not disturb. This making the flawed individual to be unaware of the communicated gestures made by another. It’s easier to not give someone an explanation, especially when one doesn’t have one themselves. Eventually, its inevitable that one realizes, but by this time they’ve already pushed parties far to far. So returning back is difficult, sometimes it’s for the best, but for most of the time how will one honestly even know if it’s best or not.
It’s safe to say that everyone deals and carries their burdens in the most structured way, they feel necessary. Being that as it may one should not punish themselves for others burdens that were placed upon them. This is easier said then done especially when one is strong willed and prideful. Take chances, live a life no one understands, but stay true to you. Don’t eat off anyone’s plate but yours, but while eating remember sometimes other individuals are placed in one’s path to show them different ways. To show them that even with those heavy burdens one solely carries. Becomes too heavy for one, and another may lend a hand, take it. You’ll never know the amazing probable possibilities one can offer. Don’t punish oneself because it’s easier, because it’s not. Sometimes letting people in our realms of chaos opens doors to the merely possible chances one was too afraid to take. Don’t pass up fate because one is consumed with the unintentional misfortunes within. While keeping two feet firmly grounded, one takes those steps to reaching. It maybe reaching into something widely remarkable.

By: Kelsie Lynn♡