With a slight glimpse of an eye, things were different. Hard to grasp with the mindless touch of a significant amount of disappointed actions of another. While keeping both feet steady on the ground, feeling like as if one was in a daze. In a way one would think thyself is steady, but for the outside looking in one would say how unsteady one has become. Between taking a tragic tumble and drowning in one’s inner self. These two are absolutely impossible to juggle, it’s a sure struggle to not tip over. While juggling all that has been carried.
They say god will never give you something you can’t handle; they’re right. Even if one is feeling off-balanced, emotionless, and or full of emotions only then does one feel that they are the strong willed individual. But, what stands in between themselves and the fire is a horrific war that’s going on in their inner self. Taking a huge toll on their mind, body and soul, a site of dysfunctional representation of themselves. A indefinite amount of realization one has soon to discover. With at any given time a volcano like eruption happens, sending alert signals all, in and around the mind. Creating a explosive behavior with no justifiable action and or reasoning behind them. Jolting up with an excessive amount of vulgar language and obscene actions resorting in anger. That’s been built up over the course of time with oneself and those present at that time. This causing others to stray away further than ever expected. Leaving emotions of sadness and disappointment. Sadness, because maybe for oneself they find it difficult to discuss they’re inner feelings and or emotions at that given time. Disappointment because through all their strategies one uses through over exceeded obstacles. Somethings about oneself still needs a bit of work. Even though one has come far, farther than ever expected. Some would say their work is not yet finished. Just when one feels like they’re getting somewhere that war of wildfires starts to burn through all they had built. While it’s easier to be stubborn and having a ruthless sense of action for every and all situations, one will soon come to the realization that those behaviors get oneself nowhere.
With the expected. acceptance of others present, one must always keep in the back of their mind that it’s hard for others to understand the struggles and obstacles that have been crossed to make who they are as a person. One can not expect acceptance from others who are unaware of those struggles. So with keeping that at hand, one becomes more aware of the way they speak and act. Being overly cautious, constantly apologizing and trying not to step on anyone’s toes. Not so much as walking on eggshells but showing an insane amount of acknowledgement that may lead to accepting the fact that somethings are better left unsaid. Only oneself has the power of silenced words and unseen actions.
At this point in time we are planting seeds as we grow, theres no limit at how fast or slow you may go. Some grow faster than most, but in all reality eventually your growth will be so shockingly different others may or may not understand it, and they don’t have to. Timing is everything, but timing is also extremely precious so try your best to plant your seeds with the possibility for growth. Roots of strength, leaves with faith, and beautiful petals of endless amounts of love for yourself and for others.
By: Kelsie Lynn♡