Throughout, the pondering wonders one thinks they know, they don’t. Not even enough time has gone by and one feels that they are walking on eggshells. Scared of disappointing the other party, so its easier and stress free to stay quiet. While realizing, the amount of silence that lingered between the two. Any time they had spent with one another, the cold but dead almost was their loss of communications. It’s like nothing was left to be said, if one catches thy drift they had been pushed back to square one. But in reality that’s like being pushed back to the likes and dislikes of each other’s prefences. Making it extremely hard to process all that’s happening so rapidly. Trying to grasp a hold onto the positive stand points, the slight smiles and or the soft laughter. But lately it’s like nothing, not a lick to conversate about. With still trying to sustain a stand up persona. It’s hard to distinguish if the pair are still friendly or not. Others seemingly to know more than the individual involved, making one want to eventually give up the sense of trying.
One soon begins to notice there hasn’t been a conversation to be had on the phone nor any conversation to be had via text. Almost, like it’s a struggle to outstand any if not all relations to be had. Cringing to the her fact that one individuals stopped giving a shit. Leaving the initial party stuck in the wonders of limbo. Making it difficult for one to put in words in the motion of speaking. Thinking it’ll be easier to write them down, but one feels that it becomes a show for all to see. Finding it significantly impossible to communicate because suddenly the individuals are tremendously uncomfortable. The fear of no communication has sprung on them, out of nowhere. Unless this is some what built up animosity that the parties never discussed. Shutting off every if not all lines of communication for why that is; sadly unknown.
Without being able to judge the other individuals true intentions, one becomes exceedingly frustrated. Frustrated at the fact that now it’s all blank stares, not even facial expressions. Dryer than the Sahara Desert, a consistent pit of dried up words. When around those individuals that soon feel they’ve become nothing but a bother.  When evolving oneself around probable possibilities, sometimes our minds get clouded by the unimaginable truth. One feels deep down, at one point being able to express all they ever needed. To now becomes extensively difficult. This creating a barrier like blockage in and around the doorway. That warm and welcoming feeling turns incredibly sour way too quick. Distancing from the party and branching off to other ways of living. Which is fine, because that’s life. But don’t make it that one is not wanted. The reason for this is because all conversations to have or to be had are dull to the tip and as bland as unflavored yogurt.  With no excitement behind any words, any sentences, and any paragraphs. The whole story one was telling. Shows no signs of anticipated emotions shown by the other party.
 A puzzling like stand point takes over the mind. Overcasting, oneself judgement with negative illusions that sit buried within the mind. Desperately, wanting that 50/50 relation back. Noticing that even if one is not capable to give the full 50/50 how about 50/40 or 50/30. The examples continue all in all just to realize, when one individual comes to acknowledging that. Maybe there is a third party, an outside individual or individuals. Feel it’s unusually important for one too eventually run tired of the party. Leaving them alone in their sorrows and with the to confused ponders, one has placed. Making the initial party to look upon the hidden clues in which one has left. Adding up all conclusive clues in which creates a sadden case of movement. Judging that very moment, making it crucial to each and every surrounded objective. While recognizes, the downfalls to the crashing connection. One may feel as though, there’s nothing to be done. Now, but to slowly drift and follow the other’s footsteps. Gradually, backing away from the situation and one coming to realizations it is what it is, and some things are better left untold.
   Eventually, both collective parties will soon get that worn out feeling. This typical party involved, may feel that the work in this relation is one sided. Slowly but surely the inevitable, situations at hand become almost impossible to play with. Learning to bare with one’s non existing presence. Without, having any intentions of pursuing any further reference like prior. Growing weary of always talking about the same scenarios. So the most talkative character shuts down completely. This leaving no room for unexpected tendencies to outweigh one another. In the hopes that this doesn’t make it incredibly awkward. Then one shows the other party the interpretations they’d been showing them. An inconsiderately non expressive with no facial remark tendencies. A dullness with a non flavorable taste, not angry and not upset. Just relaying, the others same approach they bestowed first. 
   It’s significantly inflexible for a particular but peculiar character, to distinguish the masked party. To positively give an accurate response, when they’re unknown to themselves as well as others. Holding back the refined information. This abandoning the solo party with an uneasy motion through their personal responses. A negative aura following their every which way. With no acknowledgement to become aware of. This is why staying true to the internal you as well as the external is highly suggested. All those around feel one’s energies. For example if one has a explosive personality. That fills rooms with joy and laughter, one day it just doesn’t shut off. Unless it has been tampered with, which in this case it was. So always keep in mind; be honest, but be true to you. By showing dishonesty in oneself can cause. The individuals that share their lives with other’s will notice. When they notice a fraud like variant, begins to wonder why and what one did to cause this dramatic change.  Some will ask a questionnaire type of questions and some will put it to the back burner in hopes. That someone else brings up such change. Most won’t think twice because just like one didn’t openly tell another, one does not have to confront another. One does not wish to confront another growing restless to the core. This withering any confrontation with the distant other to become subconsciously fulfilled. Evacuating with no words left to express.

By: Kelsie Lynn♡