There once was estrange individual, a female who was sadden by the misunderstood decisions they have had, by the images created by themselves as well as the images formed by others. Images in a form of a reputative circumstantial instances that were created over time, that have gone on in their past, following in their present and almost inching their way into their future. While sitting patiently in a work meeting, one is baffled to the co-existing factor of who one is as a person, and whom one may become as a whole. Writing down the goals one had for themselves for the day, had turned into the goals, one was making up as they go and placing them in generalized statement. Sitting in one spot for about 7hours and a billion and one different things running vastly through their minds. Discovering one’s downfalls in themselves as well as the parties in which have not existed in quite some time. Acknowledging all in which needs or requires more work, this is including the one who allows others in their lives, as well as who they are as an individual. Constantly hearing the diversely annotation of the disturbance’s one has creatively caused in their lives as well as in others’ lives. Courageously jolting down what makes them a goal oriented, and mindful individual. Who this individual was, who they are now and whom they have yet become? In the process of realizing who they are as an individual and what exactly makes them a well-rounded and structured individual. The truth is they thought too much of other thoughts before their own.

Firstly, taking the initial step to better themselves in every but all aspects of the name, deciding that they are damned if they do as well as being damned if they do not. Realizing, who they are as a person and exactly What makes them shine, be unique, or even the diverse styles they may have had or do have. Completely but utterly taking a step out of their reality and stepping into a world in which is and will be created for themselves. Without the acknowledging aspects of permanent parties that have shown only a temporary love for them. Stepping back into the cold but harsh air and understanding not all individuals one encounters is the party for them. That not all participating parties of familiar faced foes, will ever allow the growing process to be contained correctly. Causing the situated instances that arise to almost every but all occasions and consistently allowing others to discreetly have disregard for them, because they had had no regard for themselves first and foremost. Inviting in parties of closed disfigurations because one’s loneliness is reaching the level of no return.

Secondly, taking their work notebook and without realizing one is writing in ways they have never wished having a bold but brave confidence. Allowing themselves to fully acknowledge the love they have never discovered for themselves, because one was too busy trying to love those who were showing half assed forms of love for them. Thinking loudly in their minds, sentences turning into paragraphs and paragraphs turning into fully acclaimed tales. In the next paragraph it tells a story of A girl who was defeated by the opinionated objectives of other statements, because one lived in the acceptance of others. A world wind of troubles forming around themselves because they refused to acknowledge whom they were as an individual, so they purposely ignored the love build up for themselves. Clouding their minds of negativities as well as looking for every excuse to not give a shit.

The list begins with who one is as a person, and what makes them, them. Starting off by discussing how they feel about themselves, without taking the opinion of others into consideration.

The girl who?

The girl who stories are told by different tellers,

The girl who shows realism over the likeliness of others,

The girl who is acknowledges all but is known by few.

The girl who may not always get it right but gets it in time,

The girl who does not always say the right words or sometimes even does the right things.

The girl who says what is on her mind, without a thinking motion of using their brain.

The girl who excitedly jumps high to all occasions even if they are not the ones for her.

The girl who allows herself to bottle up her feelings because it is easier than expressing them.

The girl who is misunderstood by the most familiar faces, but one is also the girl who is understood by the parties who show permanence.

The girl who chooses loneliness over popularity, because although one is liked, one cannot be bothered by parties in means of a group-like setting,

The girl who is hated by falsified words that have been stretched and pulled by other parties.

The girl whose actions were found in human causing them to not be able to fully reach their goals in time.

The girl who was locked away in a prison like confinement to figure out how to live with themselves and the illness they had, had to be formed in a proper setting, to be able to establish, the stabilization one needed to train themselves, in order to become the best version, they can and/or want to be

The girl who believes in the good, the bad, and the ugly. While completely ignoring signs of one who is masking their every expression.

The girl who is not always the prettiest on the outside, because one is busy guarding the sacredness they hold on the inside.

The girl who foresees the forbidden behaviors locked behind the prettiest of eyes.

The girl whose family was as broken as a jigsaw puzzle that has been badly torn apart.

The girl who was put on this earth to evolve from a survivor into a warrior.

The girl that makes sure everyone is fed, figuring that it is better to feed the birds bread, before feeding herself.

The girl that no matter the party in which is being spoken too always tries her best to make sure to leave them with a bright smile from ear to ear.

The woman she has become.

The women she has become allows herself to express in means of creativity in forms that may help others in the long run,

The women she has become allows herself to accept what it is, what it is not and move on, without the fights, the arguments, or any conversations to be had.

The women she has become embraces the magical aspects in life that are only seen by a select few particulars and acknowledging that fairytales are the best stories because they all have happy endings.

The women she has become is starting to fully believe in every aspect of themselves, by placing a belief so wildly strong its intensifying for others to watch.

The women she has become is acknowledging the bad behaviors placed beneath their feet and choosing to be continuing to walk.

The women she has become loves with her whole heart, no matter the love that is given in return.

The women she has become is surely realizing that the way she may handle something, others may not handle it in the same exact manner as she would.

The women she has become shows the truest of colors, when held under pressure and/or put to tests out of her control.

The women she has become cherishes her life and the parties that fall in the dominate categories of love in their life.

The women she has become has lost many individuals that have been the wisest of guided figures that have shown her, how to properly handle her scarce emotions in times that may matter the most.

The women she has become will bring unwanted hopes into the world of unknown fate residing in the most peculiar individuals.

The women she has become is on a journey to be profoundly acknowledged by the royalties that are placed hidden beyond the reach of others. Striving every day to jump the bar and escape a reality that one cannot reach just yet.

The women she has become is brave, is bold, and most importantly; she is true to herself. Refusing failures and accepting success with open arms.

The women she has become has opened her eyes to the snakes that have lived in her tall, grassed yard for some time now, that she must distinctively. Pull apart the dead from the living as well as acknowledging the true acceptance. That the dead walks deep inside souls that mask every part of themselves and that although the slithering snakes have lived in one’s yard for some time now. Its time to live a much quieter lifestyle. Without the natural behaviors of the chaotic skins that are found all over her yard.

The women she has become is rising to the occasion to bring others laughter, guidance, hope, faith, and whatever other positivity’s she may bring.

The women she has become has made it resoundingly clear that she shows permanence in this world and not a damn soul is going to have the power to dictate who they are as a person because at the end of the day. When things are said and done, she goes to sleep with herself and wakes up with herself, so NEEDING anyone is a lingo she is unfamiliar with.

The women she has become has realized its not the factor of needing anyone in particular, friends’ family, etc. It is the acknowledging understanding of the want to have another.

The women she has become has come familiar with the individuals that reside in all walls of a room, that her energy is so high that their vibrations affect others. Without acknowledging her intuitive feelings that has the same effect as the vibe one gets around the phony structured behaviors within others.

The women she has become has heard conversations that others were unaware of her observant ears, leaving her with much realization its better to act quiet instead of always jumping to the audience that is watching even if it’s from a distance.

The women she has become is no longer interested in birds that fly high in the sky, there seems to be not enough bread to share. So, for the first time in her life, she takes that step into becoming selfish for herself, her privacy, and her sanity.

The women she has become is no longer entertaining those who do not eat at her table or walk in the same path as her. With still managing to keep a humble sense of acceptance. In other reactions in past events while reminding herself that true colors do not lie, and doors that have been open for a long while can be closed just as fast.

By one acknowledging their true behaviors and just exactly who they are as a person, gives one enough clarity to answer a thousand unanswered questions. So, while others wonder about who, what, why, how, and hear stories through the largest grape vine. There one will be sitting back and enjoying the view of their new life that one has a fought battle to create, leaving behind all they’ve ever known. To become who they are meant to be because they have acknowledged the battles they have fought. But after years, they won the war, so its time for one to take a step into a reality and acknowledge how grateful they are to have survived. Deciding for themselves that what is best for them without the constant weary figures that have guarded them for some time now.

Being wise enough to keep in mind that a fresh new set of goals every day is the exact secret to be both happy and successful. It does not matter where you come from, who you know, or even what they know. All that sticks out is the life YOU create for yourself. By conquering day by day with new goals by also learning and understanding that movements one makes are to be made in the silence one would find in libraries. Fully acknowledging that individuals must earn a spot in one’s life by showing the most positive of traits all around no matter what. others may have forgotten about exactly what those are, but in all reality if you know who one truly is as an individual. You will never have to have question, have concerns, or even wonders if the other is being true to you; one will know. Gradually cleaning out all the skeletons one has in their closet, saying a farewell to their nightmares, and accepting all the probable probabilities. That are held in store for one’s future, by letting go of the old and preparing for the new.

By: Kelsie Lynn Sciacca